Therefore, rid yourselves of all malice and all deceit, hypocrisy, envy and slander of every kind. Like newborn babies, crave pure spiritual milk, so that by it you may grow up in your salvation, now that you have tasted that the Lord is good.
1 Peter 2:1
Apologies are in order. As of this moment (1:38 Sunday morning) this post is officially almost a week overdue, but there is an upside. Overdue post equals less space in between posts - so in actuality you can leave your thanks in the comment box.
Interesting week. Actually, its been an interesting couple of weeks. I know this will sound like I've lived in BC too long, but at times I have felt like I was having an out of body experience. In the strangest moments too. I would be having a conversation with someone and all of a sudden I would begin to watch myself have that conversation. Very strange.
So far I am finding that the root of this is God ripping out my core. Each day I grow more aware of hurt I didn't know I had caused, words I didn't know I could say, sin I didn't know I had. But I have progressed so far, haven't I? Is now really the time for regression?
You know that game at Wonderland where you shoot the water in the holes and your horse races horizontally above you? Well picture the different aspects of my spiritual growth being like those horses, this might be difficult, I've heard no one has an imagination anymore. So, the horses are all racing, and horse number one races in front, meanwhile horse two through seven still stumble awkwardly on. Not only are they butchering the race track, but one of the horses falls off and that teenager with the Britney Spears mic has to but it back on... at the beginning.
Nineteen years in the church, seven years going to "spiritual retreats", and two months at a Bible College... and in many ways I'm at the beginning. As I grow in awareness of my sin I am faced with that dreaded proposition of dealing with it, we'll see how that goes.
In the area of ministry - the camp variety has been what's occurring lately. In the midst of doing a full weekend here at Qwanoes - mostly spent in the dish pit... interesting. That is the word I will use to describe my time, and that will be the last time I speak about my time in the dish pit. I am learning of the God who is present and with me. And I hesitate to say that because of its juvenile connotation, but it is none the less true. God is teaching me that.
Upcoming in Kaleo is a week of prayer - there are many things that circle my mind and issues I look forward to bring to prayer in committed disciplined time slots. I am leaning towards this week being significant in the direction of my year - so I would ask that you would join me in prayer this week for my youth group, direction for next year, a thriving and honest community here at Kaleo, and for wisdom as I look to push myself head first into God's word.
In 1 Peter it speaks about a spiritual milk, how we are to crave for this. Paul talks about this in his letter to the church in Corinth (1 Corinthians 3:1-3). How this spiritual milk is the basics, the heart of the gospel of Christ. So this year I hope to do two things. One, be reminded of my daily need for Jesus, plain and simple. Two, to grow into the "solid food" found in scripture, to be challenged and broken by it.
I encourage you to keep journeying with me.
Jake
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